so i just need to write this and put this here...but at the end of this month i'm going to ocean city for a long weekend camping with just my cousin. and kyle is flooding my mind. like not that he hasn't been on my mind, it's just been like a wave crashes over me since last year and i'll just be trying to count the time as it was going to make it sound like it would be faster than it was. i can't believe summer is already here. and i'm scared because i don't know if i'm gonna try and find him, i don't know if he will be working at the grounds like he said he would. i don't know if he meant to kept his word saying we'd pick back up this summer. fjedbnjkdajd. i don't even know if i should try or just leave it for what it was. fuck. okay i'm done with this for right now.....

also enjoy the two seperate posts. this is just gifs & quotes. another post is below of mainly pictures.

i'm not like the people of your past.

“I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it’s not because I’m lonely, and it’s not because it’s New Year’s Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.”   - When Harry Met Sally.    

“You can’t just make me different and then leave. You can’t. You can’t change me and make my whole life centered around you, then leave.”    - John Green, Looking for Alaska.

“What makes you walk past thirty-thousand people without a second glance, and then you look at the thirty-thousandth-and-first person and know you’ll never take your eyes off her again?” - jodi picoult, second glance. 

“When you’re an introvert like me and you’ve been lonely for a while, and then you find someone who understands you, you become really attached to them. It’s a real release.” - Lana Del Rey. 

how am i supposed to pretend like i never want to see you again?.

"this is the problem with getting attached to someone. when they leave you, you just feel lost."





it's as if you just know the right things to say, you say what sounds nice and what someone would want to hear. but the things you're saying lack the depth and sincerity needed for such words. and are about as shallow as you.--wishfullthinkerx.

“But hurry, let’s entwine ourselves as one, our mouth broken, our soul bitten by love, so time discovers us safely destroyed.” - Federico garcia lorca.

“You know how you let yourself think that everything will be all right if you can only get to a certain place or do a certain thing. But when you get there you find it’s not that simple.”- richard adams, watership down.

“When people walk away from you, let them go. You shouldn’t have to talk them into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, and coming to see you, because if they really cared about you in the first place; they would not be going anywhere.”                                                            



“Your wheels just turn down the road ahead, if it hurts at all, you ain’t shown it yet. I keep looking for the slightest sign that you might miss what you left behind. I know there’s nothing stopping you now… but I’d settle for a slowdown.”  - dierks bentley.                                                          

if you get me to care about you, you’re one special mother fucker.





Why does stuff always have to get more complicated?







 

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hi guys sowwy i've been absent as of lately :/ two jobs takes up a lot of my time. i'll be on here this weekend though since i'll be in tennessee for a long weekend :] i've missed this a whole lot. okay baaaai.



good things never last; bad things never die.

“Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering.” - Nicole Krauss                                                          



you > anything else.



if you only knew how horrible it feels to not have you

I want you to want to talk to me 24/7. Im selfish and i want you all to myself. I want your full undivided attention because that way I know you’re giving it to me and not someone else…

this goofy smile on my face that comes effortlessly, the flush in my cheeks, this happiness that overcomes me..i have you to thank for it.--wishfullthinkerx.

“She was bored. She loved, had capacity to love, for love, to give and accept love. Only she tried twice and failed twice to find somebody not just strong enough to deserve it, earn it, match it, but even brave enough to accept it.” - The Town, by William Faulkner.

no matter how long it's been there are still times when i think of you and it suddenly gets harder to breathe.

“I feel like sometimes I’m in my own little world, and you’re always next to me, and I don’t know how you do it, but you understand me.” - eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

“Think how you love me,” she whispered. “I don’t ask you to love me always like this, but I ask you to remember.”

“You’ll always be like this to me.”

“Oh no; but promise me you’ll remember.” Her tears were falling. “I’ll be different, but somewhere lost inside me there’ll always be the person I am tonight.”

-f. scott fitzgerald.



i just want to be out of my head for a while, away from my thoughts and have a break from the overanalyzing and overthinking my mind automatically does. i'm just so sick of it ruining things for me, and the fact that i somehow allow myself to do it.--wishfullthinkerx

what part of the brain is responsible for feelings cause its gay and i want to rip it out.

“The worst thing one can do is not to try, to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized - never knowing.”-Jim Rohn.



“We mistake sex for romance. Guys are taught that pushing a girl up against a wall is romance. Sex is easy; you can do it with anyone, yourself, with batteries. Romance is when someone you like walks into a room and they take your breath away. Romance is when two people are dancing and they fit together perfectly. Romance is when two people are walking next to each other and all of a sudden they find themselves holding hands, and they don’t know how that happened.” -John C. Moffi.

“We tend to fall in love the same way we get sick - without wanting to, without believing it, against our will, and unable to defend ourselves.”                                                               



everything we had is no longer there.



if you lose interest that's fine..well not really but i'm used to it. just tell me so i stop trying.





this is one of the hardest things for me. you came into my life, unexpectedly and it's like all at once things changed. you somehow brought out this happiness in me that i haven't felt in what feels like months now. and it's like it's addicting, that kind of happiness you don't want to ever go away and you'd do whatever it takes to make it last and become permenant. and i guess that's the problem with me i'm so inlove with that the butterflies in the pit of your stomach, staying up all night talking, wanting to know the little things about someone else and love them for it. and with me if i invest my time i'm investing my feelings too, so i get hurt easily. and it's like one day things were going so well, and now i don't know what to do because i'm scared you've changed your mind about me. i'm scared you've decided i'm not what you wanted afterall. and i'm trying to ready myself for that possibility, but it's really the last thing i'd ever want.--wishfullthinkerx



                                                                                                                                            

“And when we do find each other again, we’ll cling together so tight that nothing and no one’ll ever tear us apart. Every atom of me and every atom of you. We’ll live in birds and flowers and dragonflies and pine trees and in clouds and in those little specks of light you see floating in sunbeams. And when they use our atoms to make new lives, they won’t just be able to take one, they’ll have to take two, one of you and one of me, we’ll be joined so tight.” Phillip Pullman, The Amber Spyglass.

i hate how i'm always the person who cares too much in any given situation. i'm always the one who is crying because i don't know what i did wrong to make someone give up on me. i'm always the person who keeps trying, because the person who i thought cared obviously didn't not even enough to tell me they changed their mind. i'm the one who cares too much for people who never give a damn about me.--wishfullthinkerx.



lol at my life. when i wrote this what like a day or two ago i was so happy. now i'm wanting to just get out of my head because i'm so fucking miserable. my mind is so fucked up it ruins me....anyway enjoy this.



"Call me cursed, Or just call me blessed.
If you can’t handle my worst, You ain’t getting my best."

i have this ridiculous goofy smile stuck on my face, stars in my eyes, and gigantic butterflies moving around in my stomache...and i have you to thank for this amazing overwhelming feeling. -wishfullthinkerx.

heartless? no, i just learned to use my heart less.



it was the fact that as soon as i was walking out that door i knew i should have done something anything but i couldn't. you had this effect on me i got insanely shy and froze up. but you were unlike guys i've met. you were respectful and just so sweet with everything you said and every gesture you made. you have me with this goofy smile effortlessly. and i love how happy i get just to be thinking about you or talking to you. i was kicking myself the other night when i thought i had lost my chance with you, but there was something about us that told me i had to do something. and i'm so happy that i did.--wishfullthinkerx.