 good things never last; bad things never die. “Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering.” - Nicole Krauss you > anything else.  if you only knew how horrible it feels to not have you I want you to want to talk to me 24/7. Im selfish and i want you all to myself. I want your full undivided attention because that way I know you’re giving it to me and not someone else…  this goofy smile on my face that comes effortlessly, the flush in my cheeks, this happiness that overcomes me..i have you to thank for it.--wishfullthinkerx. “She was bored. She loved, had capacity to love, for love, to give and accept love. Only she tried twice and failed twice to find somebody not just strong enough to deserve it, earn it, match it, but even brave enough to accept it.” - The Town, by William Faulkner.   no matter how long it's been there are still times when i think of you and it suddenly gets harder to breathe. “I feel like sometimes I’m in my own little world, and you’re always next to me, and I don’t know how you do it, but you understand me.” - eternal sunshine of the spotless mind “Think how you love me,” she whispered. “I don’t ask you to love me always like this, but I ask you to remember.” “You’ll always be like this to me.” “Oh no; but promise me you’ll remember.” Her tears were falling. “I’ll be different, but somewhere lost inside me there’ll always be the person I am tonight.” -f. scott fitzgerald. i just want to be out of my head for a while, away from my thoughts and have a break from the overanalyzing and overthinking my mind automatically does. i'm just so sick of it ruining things for me, and the fact that i somehow allow myself to do it.--wishfullthinkerx what part of the brain is responsible for feelings cause its gay and i want to rip it out.     “The worst thing one can do is not to try, to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized - never knowing.”-Jim Rohn. “We mistake sex for romance. Guys are taught that pushing a girl up against a wall is romance. Sex is easy; you can do it with anyone, yourself, with batteries. Romance is when someone you like walks into a room and they take your breath away. Romance is when two people are dancing and they fit together perfectly. Romance is when two people are walking next to each other and all of a sudden they find themselves holding hands, and they don’t know how that happened.” -John C. Moffi.  “We tend to fall in love the same way we get sick - without wanting to, without believing it, against our will, and unable to defend ourselves.” everything we had is no longer there.  if you lose interest that's fine..well not really but i'm used to it. just tell me so i stop trying.   this is one of the hardest things for me. you came into my life, unexpectedly and it's like all at once things changed. you somehow brought out this happiness in me that i haven't felt in what feels like months now. and it's like it's addicting, that kind of happiness you don't want to ever go away and you'd do whatever it takes to make it last and become permenant. and i guess that's the problem with me i'm so inlove with that the butterflies in the pit of your stomach, staying up all night talking, wanting to know the little things about someone else and love them for it. and with me if i invest my time i'm investing my feelings too, so i get hurt easily. and it's like one day things were going so well, and now i don't know what to do because i'm scared you've changed your mind about me. i'm scared you've decided i'm not what you wanted afterall. and i'm trying to ready myself for that possibility, but it's really the last thing i'd ever want.--wishfullthinkerx  “And when we do find each other again, we’ll cling together so tight that nothing and no one’ll ever tear us apart. Every atom of me and every atom of you. We’ll live in birds and flowers and dragonflies and pine trees and in clouds and in those little specks of light you see floating in sunbeams. And when they use our atoms to make new lives, they won’t just be able to take one, they’ll have to take two, one of you and one of me, we’ll be joined so tight.” Phillip Pullman, The Amber Spyglass. i hate how i'm always the person who cares too much in any given situation. i'm always the one who is crying because i don't know what i did wrong to make someone give up on me. i'm always the person who keeps trying, because the person who i thought cared obviously didn't not even enough to tell me they changed their mind. i'm the one who cares too much for people who never give a damn about me.--wishfullthinkerx.   |