"Bartender set 'em up. hell as long as she's here might as well stay drunk, start fresh tomorrow somewhere down the road. Shut down another bar try to convince my heart somehow, sometime, some place, this is gonna work. Oh but what if I run out of honky tonks before I get over her..?" 
in my honest opinion, waking up at 7am and wearing a flannel & sweatpants to mcdonalds with someone and eating in the parking lot in your car would be a pretty cute morning. 
don't worry if i argue with you, worry when i stop because that means there is nothing left to fight for. 
the days were long and open. the nights were full of stars. 
i learned a lot about falling in love when i fell out of love. i learned a lot about being a friend when i was alone. 
“To hell with them. Nothing hurts if you don’t let it.” - Ernest Hemingway. 
“A girl should be two things: who and what she wants.” - Coco Chanel, The Gospel According to Coco Chanel: Life Lessons from the World’s Most Elegant Woman. 
“I have noticed that if you look carefully at people’s eyes the first five seconds they look at you, the truth of their feelings will shine through for just an instant before it flickers away.” - Sue Monk Kidd, The Secret Life of Bees. 
time passes and people change but i think i have lost myself in that time. 
what i really wanted to say: "i'm sorry but i love you too much to talk about it right now."
 things i thought i knew have fallen and been replaced like last autum's leaves. 
chances are i don't like you if you say: "you're irreplacable" , "i care about you" , "i won't hurt you". because then you're a liar and i don't like liars. 
realize the sooner you stop trying to please everyone, the sooner you begin to make yourself happy. 
“Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim.” - Nora Ephron. 
i don't want you to save me..i want you to stand by my side as i save myself. 
i'm sorry i'm not an easy person to be with. 
“There would always be people that would say that long distance relationships don’t work, just remember that they are not the people who are in the relationship. Making it work surviving the long distance cannot should not be determined by them.” 
I'm so tired of people needing a reason for doing everything in their lives. Do it because you want to. Because it's fun. Because it makes you happy. 
hold onto what you love,stay true to what you know..and take everything you dream of and never let it go.  When you fall down, you gotta pick yourself back up and keep on going because sometimes there isn't going to be a person there to do it for you. 
“As I look back on my life, I realize that every time I thought I was being rejected from something good, I was actually being re-directed to something better.”  “I do not think I’m easy to define. I have a wandering mind. And I’m not anything that you think I am.” - Syd Barrett. 
“I’m really tired of everyone treating me like I’m made out of glass.” - pretty little liars. 
Sometimes you have to give up on people. Everyone that is in your journey is meant to be in your journey, but not everyone is meant to stay there.  “Both of us deserve better than staying together because we’re afraid we’ll be destroyed if we don’t.” 
 “You are terrifying and strange and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love.” - Warsan Shire. 
i remember way too many small details about people so i have to act dumb sometimes so i don’t freak them out 
"..but then i realized i was hanging onto something that didn't exsist anymore. that person i missed didn't exsist anymore. people change. the things we like and dislike change. and we could wish all day long that they didn't, but they always will." 
My life is a lot like Eat, Pray, Love except I don’t pray or love. 
"so, this is my life. and i want you to know that i am both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how that could be."  “I still catch myself feeling blue about things that don’t matter anymore.” - Kurt Vonnegut, Unready to Wear. 
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